Being Mummy!

The first word I hear most days is “Mummy”, followed by a tender “I love you” or “good morning” or “Can I have chocolate for breakfast?” Or in J’s case I get a I’m hungry whinge! Before my eyes are even open, before my brain has fully adjusted to the reality of no more sleep. I am reminded that before all else, I am Mummy . I have two little people depending on me to fulfil that role unquestioningly. There are days, of course, that I inwardly groan and silently beg for a break from this relentless responsibility. I don’t want to be a cook, cleaner, stylist, mentor, nurse, art teacher, entertainer and enforcer of unfair rules. When I wake up on these tired, uninspired days, I have to dig deep and remember that my children are innocent bystanders of my exhaustion. I have to be mindful always, even if it means regular visits to… View Post

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The Reality of Motherhood

As I was growing up my mum frequently uttered the words ‘I quit!’, to which my reply was you can’t just quit! Today I find myself uttering those same words, I am starting to say the things I never thought I would! There are a few reasons why I feel like this today, it is the reality of Motherhood with out the fairy dust & sparkly shine of the happy times. I wish I was the one always asking what was for dinner. Having someone care what I like & cook for me. Know what was to be served, smelt it cooking, yet when it is served up, changed my mind. Thinking that I have my own live in chef to suit my desires and tastes. I wish I could, even though endlessly asked to put my clothes in the wash baskets, could spread out my outfit from the front door, right… View Post

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An open letter to my husband

My husband has the sort of job where you have to shave and get dressed. I have the sort of job where you have to do neither. He has to set an alarm on the morning to get ready for work, the other morning I complained how he was waking everyone up with being so noisy in the morning, his comment being I am the one that has to get up for work – however when he is up so are me and E, so I am assuming being a stay at home mum isn’t viewed at work? I tend to feel defensive about this, particularly when he asks, “So what are you up to today or tomorrow?” Up to? Up to? “Up to” is a phrase used for kids and retirees, people with tons of free time. My answer is at once “not much” and “you name it’. I’m… View Post

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Cuddle me mummy.

If you’ve been around little kids at all, you know their neediness can be both heartwarming and overwhelming. But even in the trying moments when you just want to continue the task at hand, it’s hard to refuse the sweet face looking up at you with arms stretched high. This week E has increased her requests to be cuddled. She charges at me and reaches toward my waist, half appealing and half demanding, “Can I have a cuddle Mummy.” If by chance it takes me a moment to respond, She barrels impatiently into my shins with a little whine and grabs behind my legs. “Cuddle Mummy” I scoop her up for a squeeze and a kiss. E thinks she needs me, certainly wants me, and it brings me back to what’s important – my distracted heart is refreshed. I can be sitting watching some television, normally along the lines of Peppa Pig or Doc Mcstuffins and she will… View Post

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A trip to the park

The School holidays are here, well they have been for a couple of weeks! Whilst that doesn’t make too much of a difference to us as E was only in pre school one afternoon a week – I do however miss that one afternoon of peace and quiet. It does mean that places are a lot busier, prices on holidays rocket up but more importantly the sun occasionally shines! There are plenty of fun things to do In the UK and lots of them are free or reasonably priced. We are very lucky to live in a sea-side town so we can spend days on the beach. Yesterday was a sunny day so after doing a few jobs in the morning we decided to go to the park in the afternoon, which is only a five minuet walk away. E loves going to the park, it is one big adventure and lots… View Post

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