To me, time is everything. It’s all we have, really.
You can do almost anything with it. You can’t do anything without it.
In need of inspiration I was flicking through my posts over the past few months. The lull where I haven’t told you what was happening. The journey i am now going to document.
What I have realised, is how quickly time has passed. How my life changed so dramatically in the blink of an eye. If you had of told me last Easter that I’d be living on my own at the end of the summer, I would have laughed at you. If you had of told me i would a single mum of two before my youngest’s fifth birthday, I might have slapped you.
And yet here I am. I’m doing it. I have embraced change and independence. I’ve taken ownership of my life. I have grieved, I’ve indulged, and I have really felt every moment. Ok, well that’s a bit of a stretch of the truth. My tendency to be emotionally disconnected has allowed me to avoid feeling a lot of the time. However, I can’t decide if that’s a good thing or a bad thing…
So I started thinking to myself, what do I want to do with my time? 43 years has gone pretty quickly, how can I ensure that I make the most of the next 30? We only get one shot at this, we have to make sure we give it our all. It’s actually been quite an easy question to answer. From the small to the big, I know what I want, and it’s all about me…
What i want..
- I want to burn scented candles, just because I can.
- Take long walks by myself, to clear my mind and stay healthy.
- Eat a lot more roast dinners, I friggin love roast dinners – roast potatoes yum!
- I want to pursue my career.
- Sleepovers and spontaneous short trips
- I want to spend more time socialising
- I Plan to take that trip to Europe and other places that I never took because M didn’t want to or was away with work.
- I want to laugh more
- Spend more time on the beach – my happy place.
- I want my children to learn, to see, to feel, to experience, not to sit at home
